Thursday, July 3, 2008

i love 舞动奇迹 (season 2) !

最近常追看 "舞动奇迹" 个人特别特别喜欢里面的"胡定欣 + 李承铉" 很喜欢看到他们make fun 的样子 超可爱~!! 也喜欢看他俩一起跳舞 感觉他们是舞台上的perfect match ~!!
我就喜欢看他俩在舞动奇迹里的表演 !

Just love it !!

Here are some links

http://www.xiaoli.cc/video/detail/1895

http://entertainment.tvb.com/strictlycomedancing/artistes/4.php?row=19&video=http://vdo.tvb.com/g/20080602/20080602110546328-dance_1-30may2008.flv&image=

Sunday, June 29, 2008

All these fantacies & blah blah blah

I've different fantacies about romantic love since young ~

In elementary school,
I wish someone would slip a love letter in my textbook...

In high school,
I wish someone would kiss me and say " I love you" .....

In university,
I wish I could get a big surprise ~ e.g: he & I would be on a helicopter enjoying the beautiful night sky view of New York City and he would hug me from the back, saying " you are the one I've been seeking in my entire life. Jeyie ~"

Sadly ... none of these turns out to be real ~

Is that because I'm too introvert ? or too rational ?
In fact, I'm the invisible girl .....
and the one who lacks of sense of security ....

In childhood,
I am afraid of losing parents' love ... I worried my parents would love my brother more than me ~ part of the reasons I seldom have heart-to-heart talk with my parents when I was young ...

In adolescence,
I'm afraid of losing friendships ... I worried my friends would see me as a loser ... that's why I keep all the secrets to myself always ... I don't want others think I'm weak ... so I never talk about my 心事 to any of my friends, not even the best ones .... e.g : I wouldn't have written this post from the bottom of my heart if i know this blog can be accessed by everyone ~~

In adulthood,
Thought I would share every joy & sorrow with my beloved one .... but I am afraid he would think I'm pessimistic and feeling pathetic towards me .... and afraid he'd dump me someday for not being cheerful enough ...

I've all these worries just because I lack of sense of security .... as time goes by, it leads me to be an introvert person - shy to talk to others, over worried often and over thought of unnecessary stuff ....

Wheather you realized or not, I always look cool in a way .... Frankly, I'm a very rational person ... just feel that I think too rationally at times =.= * e.g : I couldn't stand the guy that I like treating others like how he treats me ... I couldn't stand he keeps talking about other girls when I'm talking over the phone with him ... I couldn't stand he deleted birthday blogs he wrote for me during my birthdays .... all he used were just lame excuses ~ You know what, I don't wanna be soo rational sometimes ... cuz that's tiring .... really .... I cried couple times over those stuff ..... you might think they are trivial, but I don't think so ... really feel like talking to someone about those stuff ... but again, I don't want others think I'm weak ~

Honestly, keeping secrets are sooo hard most of the time ....not others' but my own .... i wish i could just cry out loud or "throw" everything bothersome to someone .... all i need is just a solid shoulder to lean on ...... that's obviously not too much of a request, isn't it ?

I am an invisible girl ..... but whatever it's or whatever it turns out to be, I cherish the hope that the one who would look through my heart to show up someday ~~~

I know you will notice me, my Mr. Right ~! Even though i've no idea how long it's gonna take, I will be here waiting for you to love me =P - as i alwayz will ~!