Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine's Day !!~~

新年，虎年，情人节 ~ 第五年没在家过年了 那种热闹+讨红包的情景慢慢的在我脑海里淡忘。。。。已经习惯在这佳节独自雪中漫步 在雪中自拍+玩 etc .......

谁又知道我心里的空虚？ 永远没有。。。。。。。。

买了一件围巾背心外套作为新年+情人节礼物（超喜欢）， 没收到红包 至少也该买点东西慰劳一下自己吧 :P

Jane Creba case closed. No more recalling !

Dec 26th, 2005

Down the road, I've been testifying, recalling the incident for countless times ... until the very last trial which just ended couple days ago (late notice + waiting for nothing the whole day +.+"") ... it was really annoying !! Nonetheless, that drew the end of Jane Creba case, once and for all !! yayyyy ~~!! No more recalling !!

It is annoying, but it's even more exciting !!

With trials drawn to an end, my phobia should come to an end as well....

For the very first time since Dec 26th, 2005, I walked on Yonge St. again (right on the spot where the terrible incident happened)..... Twice, first time when I went for dinner with my friend at a Korean restaurant on Yonge St., and second time where I just grabbed my camera and headed down to Pizza Pizza and Foot Locker by myself .... I walked down Yonge St. heading to Eaton Centre and took pictures right in front of Foot Locker .... the Yonge St. sidewalk after dark and the door mat once covered with my blood etc ..... It was a huge step indeed !!!

I'm so proud of myself !!! XD

With that, I suppose everything happened that night is no longer a phobia. However, it was still unforgettable in my entire life. "Whatever doesn't kill make me stronger" It teaches me how to be brave and strong ... will be the greatest lesson of all !!

Apparently, that is the best CNY gift I gave to myself ever ~~!!!

On another note, due to the late notice and delay, I ended up staying at hotel Delta Chelsea (downtown Toronto) for 2 nights !! It sort of forced me to pass by that place once again .... face-to-face ~ Well, staying at a hotel in downtown doesn't seem to be exciting to me but the good thing is it implicitly helped me to get over my phobia .......

It's not bad after all ~ ^^V

February 2010 Exclusive Travel Plan

Theme: Let go of the past. Embrace the better future !

Feb 10th or 11th : Gathering with brother in Hamilton, for CNY ? yeah, maybe ...(Hotpot preferably hohoho ^^)

Feb 13th : Attending the CNY event organized by CSSA at Brock

Feb 14th - 16th or 17th : Meeting up with Qing 2, Helen, Shelly and Li Dan in Toronto and perhaps attending the court trial as well .... (hopefully I''m scheduled to testify around that time, then that'd be perfect!)

Feb 18th or 19th - Feb 21st : Heading to Windsor, catching up with Mike and Lucy, packing up and moving my stuff to St. Catharines (if possible)

Feb 22nd : Perhaps heading to Buffalo with Patrick

Feb 23rd - Mar 12th : Attending Job Finding Club (JFC) in Niagara Falls

P.S: Penang is supposedly to be included, but how things changed huh?! For now, I'm still not sure when I would head back yet .......

*Plan is subject to change.*

The post on February 2nd

This post is to make up the one that is supposed to be updated on Feb 2nd, 2010

That day is a memorable day indeed. Cuz ..... I eventually handed in my Independent Study paper !!!

And I'm done ~~!!! Once and for all !!!! XD

I couldn't tell how happy I'm .... I've been waiting for that day to come all this while !! It's finally OVERRRR !!!~~

Yes, yes, YESSSSSSSSS !!!!!!!!!!!

Uploaded a photo taken with my cuteee advisor/supervisor --> Dear Professor Shome =)

He is the NICEST prof. I met at Brock !! No doubt about that !!!~~ ^^

Thank you, Prof. Shome !! I will missss you !! :)

Updates

CNY is fast approaching. This CNY falls on the same day as Valentine's Day --> Feb 14
It's the TIGER year (my year) after all for god's sake !!

This kind of thing could probably happen only once in a lifetime ~ and I've to sacrifice it (not spending w/ my dearest family)

This is my fifth time (in a row) that I'm FORCED to forgo another CNY celebration with my dearest family. Nobody knows how bad I feel now. I mean, come on, I've longed to go back for CNY right after I completed the Masters Degree but now I still couldn't make it back for CNY (after all this crap : Bachelors and Masters) ?!?!

All blames should be put on the stupid citizenship application !!!! DAMNNNNNNN !!!!

God, how could you be so mean to me ???????

On another note, Mike asked me lastnite again if we could get back together .... I told him that "break-up for now, who knows what would happen in the future? Perhaps I will realize that you are my true love and go back to you after couple years ... But don't wait for me purposely. Nobody knows for now. Just let the fate decides."

When I asked him about the stuff he did for me few years back (I remember some of them vividly as they really touched me) .... even though he couldn't really remember .... I bursted out crying again when I asked him ........... and for quite a long time after we hang up (probably bcuz I'm listening to 冲动...)

Sometimes, I just admire those couples who can be together for so long (e.g: 5 or 6 years or even longer than that) After this break-up, that means I've to start all over again --> making new male friends, getting to know them, pursuing them,dating with them and lastly getting married ..... it's a long and tedious process .... and I will never know if I could meet a better if not the worse guy than him ....

But for now, I clearly know that I need to expand my circle of male friends ~~ if not, I will just keep holding onto the past, it will do nothing good ......

天涯何处无方草，何必单恋一支草.

Let go of the past. Embrace the better future !