"可惜不是你" - Specially dedicated to Mike

这一刻突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天今天同时在放映
我这句语气原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
那一段我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权力关心你
可能你已走进别人风景
多希望也有星光的投影
努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
可惜不是你陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口

Little "surprise" from Mike

Today, Jan 17th morning 10.20AM, Mike called up ...... he said he was at Brock and asked for my address ..... he asked a friend of mine to get it from me the night before ..... but I didn't give him ..... cuz I still doubt his driving and concerned about the safety of him and his car .....

Okies, let's talk about how I felt when he showed up at my doorway ....

I was shocked, a bit upset, and grumbled why he didn't notice me in advance .... if he did, I probably would ask him to help me bring some of my stuff from Windsor.. anyhow, he brought me the stuffed bear he gave me last Valentine's day and the class composite ... well, at least better than nothing >.<

But anywayz, I was kinda moved by that "surprise" ... he woke up before 6AM to drive all the way from Windsor and drove back, all by himself ..... the thought he had was really impressive .... but all I wish was he did so before I broke up with him .... then everything would not be what as it's now ......... he said he will still keep waiting for me and asked me to reconsider ........

Actually, that day was foggy ... and that made me even more worried about his safety ... Thank god, he got to Windsor safe and sound !! :)

# Timing is the key most of the time. If you've got the right timing, then you are basically ahead of everyone else and possibly make the impossible to possible. #

On Feb 26th, at 7.26pm, he called up and we chatted .....

He said, " 我要娶你“ bcuz of my exceptional cooking ..... @.@"

Should I be happy or sad ?? Whatever that is, I was definitely shocked ~~!!

*Ohooh* just realized that it's been more than 1 month from the day he showed up at my doorway ~~

生日看性格

１代表感情表达能力
（1个1)：你属于固执而不懂表达感情的人，故经常暗恋人。由于你都算理智，甚少被情所伤。
(2个1)：你善于表达感情，面对心仪对象，往往能大胆示爱。由于你喜怒形于色，恋爱过程亦见顺利。
(3个1)：你不易透露心底秘密，往往经过深思熟虑，才会将事情告知他人，所以做你的情人要有十足耐性。
(4个1)：你十分敏感，情绪起伏不定，毫不掩饰自己的喜怒哀乐，容易意志消沉，需要情人不时地鼓励。
(5个1)：你极度情绪化，容易伤害别人，作为你的情人，一定要对你耐心关怀，才能彼此沟通无阻。
２代表直觉度
(1个2)：你懂得顾及别人的感受，善于洞悉别人的想法，是一个可靠的朋友和情人。
(2个2)：你善解人意，乐于助人，爱付出。对于异性来说，你的细心体贴甚具吸引力。
(3个2或以上)：你的直觉一般，幸好反应能力强。你喜欢多姿多彩的生活，对神秘的爱情也心向往之。
３代表思维能力和想象力
(1个3)：超强的想象力令你能散发独特的魅力，而你同时向往浪漫而甜蜜的恋爱。
(2个3)：言行常超出常规，常胡思乱想。与爱侣相处时，经常云游太虚，令对方觉得无趣。
(3个3或以上)：你智商很高，思维清晰，无法忍受单调的生活，若没机会发挥才能，会变得精神紧张。
４代表行动力
(1个4)：热情澎湃，言出必行，自信十足，你会大胆表露内心感情，性欲亦旺盛。
(2个4或以上)：做人缺乏自信心，对于爱侣忠心耿耿。不会有越轨的念头，亦期望另一半对你专心不二。
５代表意志坚定度
(1个5)：思想单纯，即使情人见异思迁，你亦不会放弃，希望有守得云开见月明的一日。
(2个5)：你的意志并不坚定，容易半途而废，往往事倍功半，想好好发挥才能，最好将精力放在创意活动上。
(3个5或以上)：内心有着无法克制的热情，做事冲动，决不会改变自己决定的事情，还要另一半听你指示。
6代表自我价值
(1个6)：你天性敏感，喜欢被别人欣赏，只有这样，你才能感受到自己存在的价值。
(2个6)：你多愁善感，缺乏自信，伴侣对你的爱护，是你发挥才能的推动力。
(3个6或以上)：你有绝对的自信心，为了令自己与众不同，永远全力以赴，喜欢出风头。
７代表失恋治疗能力
(1个7)：谈恋爱时，你会为对方周全考虑，失恋治疗能力亦强，对人欢笑，背人垂泪。
(2个7)：由于你每次恋爱都很投入，故失恋时，往往伤得很深，需要向别人倾诉，才能解开郁结。
(3个7或以上)：你不易爱上人，但一旦恋爱，会是十分专情的情人。如果被抛弃，你会对曾经的一切念念不忘。
８代表智力和逻辑性
(1个8)：你聪明独立，表达能力强，有决断能力，有领导才华，做事往往得心应手。
（2个8或以上)：你智力一般，但逻辑性强，做事喜欢循序渐进，不喜欢预期以外的变化。
９代表体贴度
(1个9)：你尝试理解别人对感情的渴求，然后尽量配合。
(2个9或以上)：无论智力或精力，你都非常旺盛，但缺点是经常沉醉于自己的想法中，令情人觉得你难以捉摸。

算法 ：生日年，月，日

Example : 1986 4 10
2个1 ， 1个9， 1个8， 1个6， 1个4

Outcome :

(2个1)：你善于表达感情，面对心仪对象，往往能大胆示爱。由于你喜怒形于色，恋爱过程亦见顺利。

(1个9)：你尝试理解别人对感情的渴求，然后尽量配合。

(1个8)：你聪明独立，表达能力强，有决断能力，有领导才华，做事往往得心应手。

(1个6)：你天性敏感，喜欢被别人欣赏，只有这样，你才能感受到自己存在的价值。

(1个4)：热情澎湃，言出必行，自信十足，你会大胆表露内心感情，性欲亦旺盛。

Also, another example : 1974 1 14
3个1，1个9，1个7， 2个4

Outcome：

(3个1)：你不易透露心底秘密，往往经过深思熟虑，才会将事情告知他人，所以做你的情人要有十足耐性。

(1个9)：你尝试理解别人对感情的渴求，然后尽量配合。

(1个7)：谈恋爱时，你会为对方周全考虑，失恋治疗能力亦强，对人欢笑，背人垂泪。

(2个4或以上)：做人缺乏自信心，对于爱侣忠心耿耿。不会有越轨的念头，亦期望另一半对你专心不二。

反复地在想的一个问题

到底是他不够好 还是自己花心 ？

到底是他不够好 or I am not committed enough ?

终于分了

拖了好一阵子 今晚终于说了。。。。 虽然没想像中那么喜欢他了 但还是哭了 。。。。。

My love philosophy is

If I couldn't find someone I love and wanted to spend my life with, then I would rather be alone for life ...... of coz given that he loves me ......

颜安 祝你幸福 :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NaGLVS5b_ZY

First day of 2010 ~

Started 2010 (12 midnight) by simultaneously counting down with P. & M. over skype and phone, respectively ..... M. just arrived in Windsor 1 hour before New Year whereas P. stayed up later than his routine (kept yawning) ...... haha, I could say "even though it's a lame countdown, at least there are someone counted down with me >.<" "
I just don't wanna imagine counting down to a new year all by myself .....

Then, it came the day time ..... Jan 1st, 2010

A picture worths a thousand words

In case some of you have no idea where it is, it's Niagara-on-the-lake, There are lotz of shoplotz that u can shop around and also some very artistic restaurants where you can take a break =)

Oh yeah, watched Sherlock Holmes on that night too !! It was a freaking awesome movie !! Loveee it !!~~ XD

Happy New Year 2010 !!!!

Today is the very last day of 2009. Will be 2010 in less than 12 hours !!

Having flashback of the happenings in 2009. 2009 is kinda a long year with Masters :D

Dec '08 - Admitted by Brock

Jan '09 - Left Windsor and headed to St. Catharines (a totally new town w/ a brand new beginning and life)
- Had the WORST residential life in my life ever !!! The WORST, first and last homestay I ever had in my entire life !! Totally changed my perception towards Canadians ~~
- Started first term of MACC and met a handful of new friends (had a great time playing cards and hanging out etc)

Jan to April '09 - Working hard and smart throughout the term :)

May '09 - Stayed back in St. Catharines and slacked off (hohoho ~)

June '09 - Packed and moved all my stuff to a new home
- Left for Windsor in mid-June --> CONVOCATION !!!
- Caught up with my dearest babe - Helen and Qing Qing in Toronto!
- Flied back to Penang / B'w end of June !!!

July to August '09 - Two months of heaven-style vacation begun !!!
- Cut off the long, thick hair that I have been keeping all this while ---> back to the student-style haircut !!! Personalize myself !!! hahaahha
- Travelled to Taipei for 4 days 3 nights, but actually only 2 days 2 nights for shopping and food =.=!

Sept '09 - Headed back to Canada beginning of Sept Y_Y
- Heaven life ended and hell life begun :(((

Sept to Dec '09 - Struggled through the very last term of MACC ~~ (with sweat plus lotzz LOTZZZ of effort !!) *head band around forehead - "SURGEEE !!"*
- Worked as a marker for a Thai lecturer (been nominated as the best lecturer of Ontario ?! hmmm doubt it...)
- Worked hard and soil for presentations, assignments, projects, midterms , all sorts of crap

Dec '09 - Ended up spending X'mas and New Year break working on the fucking CG company analysis that was posted just 2 weeks before due date (after all the finals are done WHAT THE F*CK !!)
- After that is done, the capstone course of MACC (Independent Study, due in Jan) awaits !!! This course has the most workload as it is equivalent to 2 courses even though there's no lecture or whatsoever involved)
- The only thing that made this X'mas break sort of wonderful is ..... (I know what that is but not gonna disclose here :P) - Thank you for everything you have done to me ! I really appreciate it ~!! But the fact is there and also other obstacles.... not only we are soooo many years apart in age but physical distance as well ~~~ well, other than that, you are a very nice friend :) You made my life in St. Catharines and X'mas break, in particular, not to the tip of boredom ~~!! You will be part of the memory that I have for those days in St. Kitty..... Keep in touch !!! XD

Now is around 2pm. Feeling sick due to the lack of sleep for 2 nights in a row ~~ Gotta catch up with some sleep !~

Well, 2009 is gonna be part of the history. Let's welcome 2010 with new hope, wish and resolution !!!



HAPPEEE NEW YEAR everyone !!

Oh btw, not gonna countdown this year in the way I usually did !
These are the reasons : no friends, no special countdown thought (actually I do have some,just that nobody do it with me.... pathetic .....), have to work on the thesis (nah, prorbaly not today) etc etc

All in all, I am gonna have the most boring countdown ever (after I came to Canada)............... safety is the priority, isn't it ? (at least it's quite comforting ... hehe)

I promise that I am gonna make up next year of what I missed this year !!! ----> A great X'mas & countdown in the U.S. !!!