Updates

CNY is fast approaching. This CNY falls on the same day as Valentine's Day --> Feb 14
It's the TIGER year (my year) after all for god's sake !!

This kind of thing could probably happen only once in a lifetime ~ and I've to sacrifice it (not spending w/ my dearest family)

This is my fifth time (in a row) that I'm FORCED to forgo another CNY celebration with my dearest family. Nobody knows how bad I feel now. I mean, come on, I've longed to go back for CNY right after I completed the Masters Degree but now I still couldn't make it back for CNY (after all this crap : Bachelors and Masters) ?!?!

All blames should be put on the stupid citizenship application !!!! DAMNNNNNNN !!!!

God, how could you be so mean to me ???????

On another note, Mike asked me lastnite again if we could get back together .... I told him that "break-up for now, who knows what would happen in the future? Perhaps I will realize that you are my true love and go back to you after couple years ... But don't wait for me purposely. Nobody knows for now. Just let the fate decides."

When I asked him about the stuff he did for me few years back (I remember some of them vividly as they really touched me) .... even though he couldn't really remember .... I bursted out crying again when I asked him ........... and for quite a long time after we hang up (probably bcuz I'm listening to 冲动...)

Sometimes, I just admire those couples who can be together for so long (e.g: 5 or 6 years or even longer than that) After this break-up, that means I've to start all over again --> making new male friends, getting to know them, pursuing them,dating with them and lastly getting married ..... it's a long and tedious process .... and I will never know if I could meet a better if not the worse guy than him ....

But for now, I clearly know that I need to expand my circle of male friends ~~ if not, I will just keep holding onto the past, it will do nothing good ......

天涯何处无方草，何必单恋一支草.

Let go of the past. Embrace the better future !

生日印章~~刻出你的真性情!

3/24 - 5/4 ： 玫瑰印章

玫瑰印章：
你最吸引人的地方，就是渾身上下所散發出的青春活力，你的笑容就像太陽般熱情，
但凡和你有一面之交的人對你的印象都很不錯。此外，你那開朗樂觀的個性更是你的
魅力引爆點，只要你再行事前作好詳細周密的計劃成功的機率會很高哦！
而且，你的異性緣也很好呢！

花心程度：80%

心軟程度：★★★★★
天生不喜歡為難別人的你最容易別人打動，你的眼淚很輕易就會獻給你認為值得同情的人，
要知道，你的軟心腸和你那耿直的性格是分不開的。

八卦能力：★★★★
大多精力...充沛、活力滿滿的人都有這樣一個毛病，就是喜歡拉家常，談到興致上了就會
口無遮攔，所以，八卦消息自然而然就脫口而出了啦!

Mike VS Patrick ~ [effective till ......]

will update it soon ~


Well, time will tell everything and give me the perfect Mr. Right !! ~~ By then, my heart will tell me "He's the one whom I've been searching for life." For now, just let the time do its work....

"可惜不是你" - Specially dedicated to Mike

这一刻突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天今天同时在放映
我这句语气原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
那一段我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权力关心你
可能你已走进别人风景
多希望也有星光的投影
努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
可惜不是你陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口

Little "surprise" from Mike

Today, Jan 17th morning 10.20AM, Mike called up ...... he said he was at Brock and asked for my address ..... he asked a friend of mine to get it from me the night before ..... but I didn't give him ..... cuz I still doubt his driving and concerned about the safety of him and his car .....

Okies, let's talk about how I felt when he showed up at my doorway ....

I was shocked, a bit upset, and grumbled why he didn't notice me in advance .... if he did, I probably would ask him to help me bring some of my stuff from Windsor.. anyhow, he brought me the stuffed bear he gave me last Valentine's day and the class composite ... well, at least better than nothing >.<

But anywayz, I was kinda moved by that "surprise" ... he woke up before 6AM to drive all the way from Windsor and drove back, all by himself ..... the thought he had was really impressive .... but all I wish was he did so before I broke up with him .... then everything would not be what as it's now ......... he said he will still keep waiting for me and asked me to reconsider ........

Actually, that day was foggy ... and that made me even more worried about his safety ... Thank god, he got to Windsor safe and sound !! :)

# Timing is the key most of the time. If you've got the right timing, then you are basically ahead of everyone else and possibly make the impossible to possible. #

On Feb 26th, at 7.26pm, he called up and we chatted .....

He said, " 我要娶你“ bcuz of my exceptional cooking ..... @.@"

Should I be happy or sad ?? Whatever that is, I was definitely shocked ~~!!

*Ohooh* just realized that it's been more than 1 month from the day he showed up at my doorway ~~

生日看性格

１代表感情表达能力
（1个1)：你属于固执而不懂表达感情的人，故经常暗恋人。由于你都算理智，甚少被情所伤。
(2个1)：你善于表达感情，面对心仪对象，往往能大胆示爱。由于你喜怒形于色，恋爱过程亦见顺利。
(3个1)：你不易透露心底秘密，往往经过深思熟虑，才会将事情告知他人，所以做你的情人要有十足耐性。
(4个1)：你十分敏感，情绪起伏不定，毫不掩饰自己的喜怒哀乐，容易意志消沉，需要情人不时地鼓励。
(5个1)：你极度情绪化，容易伤害别人，作为你的情人，一定要对你耐心关怀，才能彼此沟通无阻。
２代表直觉度
(1个2)：你懂得顾及别人的感受，善于洞悉别人的想法，是一个可靠的朋友和情人。
(2个2)：你善解人意，乐于助人，爱付出。对于异性来说，你的细心体贴甚具吸引力。
(3个2或以上)：你的直觉一般，幸好反应能力强。你喜欢多姿多彩的生活，对神秘的爱情也心向往之。
３代表思维能力和想象力
(1个3)：超强的想象力令你能散发独特的魅力，而你同时向往浪漫而甜蜜的恋爱。
(2个3)：言行常超出常规，常胡思乱想。与爱侣相处时，经常云游太虚，令对方觉得无趣。
(3个3或以上)：你智商很高，思维清晰，无法忍受单调的生活，若没机会发挥才能，会变得精神紧张。
４代表行动力
(1个4)：热情澎湃，言出必行，自信十足，你会大胆表露内心感情，性欲亦旺盛。
(2个4或以上)：做人缺乏自信心，对于爱侣忠心耿耿。不会有越轨的念头，亦期望另一半对你专心不二。
５代表意志坚定度
(1个5)：思想单纯，即使情人见异思迁，你亦不会放弃，希望有守得云开见月明的一日。
(2个5)：你的意志并不坚定，容易半途而废，往往事倍功半，想好好发挥才能，最好将精力放在创意活动上。
(3个5或以上)：内心有着无法克制的热情，做事冲动，决不会改变自己决定的事情，还要另一半听你指示。
6代表自我价值
(1个6)：你天性敏感，喜欢被别人欣赏，只有这样，你才能感受到自己存在的价值。
(2个6)：你多愁善感，缺乏自信，伴侣对你的爱护，是你发挥才能的推动力。
(3个6或以上)：你有绝对的自信心，为了令自己与众不同，永远全力以赴，喜欢出风头。
７代表失恋治疗能力
(1个7)：谈恋爱时，你会为对方周全考虑，失恋治疗能力亦强，对人欢笑，背人垂泪。
(2个7)：由于你每次恋爱都很投入，故失恋时，往往伤得很深，需要向别人倾诉，才能解开郁结。
(3个7或以上)：你不易爱上人，但一旦恋爱，会是十分专情的情人。如果被抛弃，你会对曾经的一切念念不忘。
８代表智力和逻辑性
(1个8)：你聪明独立，表达能力强，有决断能力，有领导才华，做事往往得心应手。
（2个8或以上)：你智力一般，但逻辑性强，做事喜欢循序渐进，不喜欢预期以外的变化。
９代表体贴度
(1个9)：你尝试理解别人对感情的渴求，然后尽量配合。
(2个9或以上)：无论智力或精力，你都非常旺盛，但缺点是经常沉醉于自己的想法中，令情人觉得你难以捉摸。

算法 ：生日年，月，日

Example : 1986 4 10
2个1 ， 1个9， 1个8， 1个6， 1个4

Outcome :

(2个1)：你善于表达感情，面对心仪对象，往往能大胆示爱。由于你喜怒形于色，恋爱过程亦见顺利。

(1个9)：你尝试理解别人对感情的渴求，然后尽量配合。

(1个8)：你聪明独立，表达能力强，有决断能力，有领导才华，做事往往得心应手。

(1个6)：你天性敏感，喜欢被别人欣赏，只有这样，你才能感受到自己存在的价值。

(1个4)：热情澎湃，言出必行，自信十足，你会大胆表露内心感情，性欲亦旺盛。

Also, another example : 1974 1 14
3个1，1个9，1个7， 2个4

Outcome：

(3个1)：你不易透露心底秘密，往往经过深思熟虑，才会将事情告知他人，所以做你的情人要有十足耐性。

(1个9)：你尝试理解别人对感情的渴求，然后尽量配合。

(1个7)：谈恋爱时，你会为对方周全考虑，失恋治疗能力亦强，对人欢笑，背人垂泪。

(2个4或以上)：做人缺乏自信心，对于爱侣忠心耿耿。不会有越轨的念头，亦期望另一半对你专心不二。

反复地在想的一个问题

到底是他不够好 还是自己花心 ？

到底是他不够好 or I am not committed enough ?