CNY is fast approaching. This CNY falls on the same day as Valentine's Day --> Feb 14
It's the TIGER year (my year) after all for god's sake !!
This kind of thing could probably happen only once in a lifetime ~ and I've to sacrifice it (not spending w/ my dearest family)
This is my fifth time (in a row) that I'm FORCED to forgo another CNY celebration with my dearest family. Nobody knows how bad I feel now. I mean, come on, I've longed to go back for CNY right after I completed the Masters Degree but now I still couldn't make it back for CNY (after all this crap : Bachelors and Masters) ?!?!
All blames should be put on the stupid citizenship application !!!! DAMNNNNNNN !!!!
God, how could you be so mean to me ???????
On another note, Mike asked me lastnite again if we could get back together .... I told him that "break-up for now, who knows what would happen in the future? Perhaps I will realize that you are my true love and go back to you after couple years ... But don't wait for me purposely. Nobody knows for now. Just let the fate decides."
When I asked him about the stuff he did for me few years back (I remember some of them vividly as they really touched me) .... even though he couldn't really remember .... I bursted out crying again when I asked him ........... and for quite a long time after we hang up (probably bcuz I'm listening to 冲动...)
Sometimes, I just admire those couples who can be together for so long (e.g: 5 or 6 years or even longer than that) After this break-up, that means I've to start all over again --> making new male friends, getting to know them, pursuing them,dating with them and lastly getting married ..... it's a long and tedious process .... and I will never know if I could meet a better if not the worse guy than him ....
But for now, I clearly know that I need to expand my circle of male friends ~~ if not, I will just keep holding onto the past, it will do nothing good ......
天涯何处无方草，何必单恋一支草.
Let go of the past. Embrace the better future !
